dying heart

Time goes by...so many changes in my life...specially in my relationship wif hubby.I wanted to understand but most of the time really i cant understand him..Felt so sad for his changed..i dunno whats happening behind my back..but i feel nervous..that history maybe repeating ryt now...he say i just think too much but..cant blame me for this...he really change a lot the way he treated me. the way he care me..im scared to get fall again. thinking of ranning away before i get hurt badly n cant stand back my feet again.but thinking of my babies kip holding me back. what should i do??stay n stay unhappy???dont stay n make my children unhappy...y like this? cant feel tat love is in the air.depressed..stress..hais..want to go  far away land and forget everything bout my heart.."TOO MUCH LOVE WILL KILL U"...tired loving u...wish i can say gudbye..but my heart so pain to say gudbye...wish i can just close my eyes but i cant...pain makes me numb..same way wif him...can just let go each other???hais...watever...i want holiday...