I remember when hubby ask my permission tat he wanted to go thailand wif his school friends..i say i dun wan..but he sounds unhappy so i allow him to go even if it against wif me..i felt so sad cos i bluff him say i oso goin thailand wif my frend then i meet him there.Then he say cannot..if i go he wont go over anymr cos he will onli worried bout me. he wont enjoy the trip if im there.He say it once onli happen that his wif his friend on trip. So,i cant go wif him. My heart reli break into pcs wen he say it..i felt that his frends r more important than me.They goin to stay there for  one week so im very worried..thinking tey goin to have fun n gals out there.He reach thailand he dun even care to col me..i try to get him through but i cant reach him.I cant sleep cos ive waited for his col.Aftr a day i recieve his col.,he sound so happy..he reli enjoyin n there..i ask him y nvr col me??say no batt his fon..col expensive..no charger...no top up...blah!blah!blah! make me damn piss off his alibis. I quarrel wif him tat make him angry too!one whole week that i oso nvr sleep just to wait he will col me.He say he tried to col but blah!blah!blah! i ard started to suspect him,thinking of so many things about him that make me crazy!i feel so miserable thinkin tat he nvr care me..im here crying everynyt while his there enjoying his life wif his frends. no matter wat i do,i reli cant sleep and my heartbeating so fast..n i dunno why?i felt that ive thrown by him.Aftr a day again he got col me say he saw a hello kitty stuff toy holding a diffrnt flags.He ask me if i want>>I dun wan to say anything cos i damn irritated of him. He wan to buy me pasalubong??y nid to ask me? if he reli want to give me a present he no nid to ask me ryt??in the end he oso will tell me last stock he dun want to buy it..then he will go find other stores then other store dun have hello kitty..blah!blah!blah! again.wtf! he make me feel that i reli nthn wif him.The pain inside my heart is too much..dunno wat to do.Til he go bck sg..i still talk to him like nthn happen to me..im so sick. got fever..i nvr eat til he come back..i ask myself why i punish myself til like this when the person that cause me suffer dun even have feelin sorry for me..i still make myself strong. I said to myself everything will be soon fine cos he ard back. i just think too much about him..convince my ownself..heal my own pain..take care again my health.i tried to not scold him anymr..forget evrything...hais..."if he onli knows what id been go through...if he onli know how painful my heart is" he wont know cos he doesnt care.